"High Life"

Sometimes during the day at a certain point, my body unites with my mind, where only i see beauty in things that i wouldnt see normally. It makes me feel high and alive! I rarley find myself in the habbit of walking into this type of trance, its something that appears out of the blue and where i start to build this addiction for that sensation of feeling alive without having to be alive. When i reach to a point where my thoughts are so deep the pain is less greater and much more satesfying, i reach the other side where most of the times is beyond my comprehension. Why the need? Why the urge for freedom? And if the urge for freedom withdrew to that, then you are really never free. You become prisoner of your own addiction, of your pain but most of all... of yourself!
If heaven exists then im in heaven, if hell exists be there aswell. Why not be wherever you want to be... Freefalling!!! always hitting the ground, reality is the ground wich i choose to hit, its the ground that makes me retire everyday to a different world where i connect, where i feel alive, where i only ask questions to answers i allready have... Its the world where i dont need anything or anyone, im a 100% sain and free of wanting to be free.